Poetry

  • so it comes and so it goes.

    today, i unexpectedly found something of yours lying in the depths of my heart;
    i wanted to hold it, to turn it in my hands, feeling the shape of our abandoned dreams in all of its angles.
    i thought i might bring it close to my face, breathe deeply, and be reminded of your scent… maybe close my eyes and somehow see yours once more.

    might you even feel me across these tortured years, gently probing in some synaptic way?
    i held my breath and reached out… it crumbled like cold ash from a long gone fire the moment my fingers tenderly grazed it, drifting away, mercifully, on the winds of change.

    i cannot recall the sound of your laughter.

    ...

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  • quantum heart murmurs

    a few yesterdays ago
    in the hours between the deepest of night
    and the rising warmth of the sun,
    when i was feeling how heavy
    the weight of forgetting is,
    i wrote you a letter.

    it holds all of the secrets
    i wanted you to know about my heart,
    and the way that you left things
    like the scattering of leaves
    after a storm that never
    showed up on anyone’s radar.

    it tells the story of how many nights
    i held your shape in the dark with my soul,
    waiting,
    and the way that i could make my breath
    actually say your name even when i held it.

    i wrote about the way that the moon
    reminds me of the shiniest part inside of me
    that you found and then stole
    but that somehow still lights my way home
    when i feel alone.

    when i was done with the damp pages,
    i folded it into a tiny, star-shaped heart
    and carefully postmarked it
    to a future you, who may or may not
    someday care.

    a few yesterdays ago

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  • Birthday Balloons are the BEST!

    seven years ago
    i saw your face for the first
    time – it was perfect

    in so many ways
    you have changed, grown, and flourished
    but this fact remains

    you will always be
    the best thing that has ever
    happened to your mom

    ***

    This photo is from Braden’s 1 Year Birthday. Today he turns 7.
    The time is flying by, but I cherish everything, and with each passing day, ever more so.

    Birthday Balloons Are The BEST!

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